I’ve been thinking about what my story is and what kind of narrative it would take on. What are the patterns in my past? How can I breakdown past successes, figure out all the steps involved, and create templates for what works in order to do it again? With my failures, what can I do, going forward, to avoid these situations altogether?
An overused, but extremely true, quote from Steve Jobs:
You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. Because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart even when it leads you off the well worn path; and that will make all the difference.
I don’t have the answers now, but I will start by going all the way back to the beginning, and writing down each standout moment that I believe has shaped me, and has gotten me to now.
One thing I have to keep reminding myself is that I’m not remembering the actual event itself, but a memory of the last time I remembered it:
“A memory is not simply an image produced by time traveling back to the original event -- it can be an image that is somewhat distorted because of the prior times you remembered it,” said Donna Bridge, a postdoctoral fellow at Northwestern University Feinberg School of Medicine and lead author of the paper on the study recently published in the Journal of Neuroscience. “Your memory of an event can grow less precise even to the point of being totally false with each retrieval.”
After this long compiling process, I will tag and categorize each event and hope that patterns will emerge. If I’m brave enough, I’ll publish the end results. No promises though.
To aid future inspection and introspection, I’ll reboot my use of Reporter — and any new questions I come up with will be added to the wonderful repository. You can’t manage what you can’t measure, yet some of the most important things aren’t measurable.